Had a dream of Shafiqak last night, which kinda got me thinking about my current situation.
In these few years there has been a couple of times where I had gone into situations with girls where there was the opportunity to develop into something more. After which I would just take a step back and start keep my distance abruptly, like a knee-jerk reaction. Sometimes it makes me feel bad for treating them with indifference thereafter. Some of my friends don't understand the reason for my defensive behaviour - since you're single just go for it, they always say. It's true to an extent - well, I guess it's every guy's aim to put up as many notches on his bedpole as possible.
But, all in all I wouldn't want to be in a relationship just for the sake of one. As cliche as it sound, I'm not just a piece of meat.