After my second Info-System Seminar lesson today it hit me hard that I'm lacking in IT knowledge. Those ERPs, EDIs... I had totally no idea of what they mean. Not surprising since I'm not really very IT-savvy. Then why did you pick this to be your degree, you might ask. Because the name Informatic-Systems sounds cool? Well it's just something about picking a realistic choice.
Stress... haven't felt like this for a long time. The way in which you feel your brain tightening up and slowly becoming heavier and heavier. The way in which frowning becomes your default facial expression. Heh, even I didn't feel like this when I was preparing to retake my A levels.
Its different from the one I've been having for the past few months. The above mentioned kind of stress affects the brain. This one hits the heart. A kind of aching which is more painful than any open wound, a sense of disinterest in anything - even talking to other girls I find myself hard to sustain the conversation with any energy. Compared to other people who change lovers and indulge in flings here and there, I must look like a dork right? But this is just me.
So which one is more damaging to my well being? I dunno. Cause I'm experiencing both of them at the same time now.