In a group some will take on the role of the joker, some will take lead of the group, and some (unfortunately,) will be the laughing stock of the group - the butt of all jokes. You will usually find me as the average joe, never talking much, staying at the background and being entertained by the 'jokers'. Once in a while I will pop in some lame jokes and riddles.
I find it hard to express my feelings to people. Sure, it is easy to be friendly and nice. But I'm talking about the innermost feelings - your most private stuff. Heh, I can never have a heart to heart talk with my parents. My brother? We talk crap and stuff but to share our innermost feelings would be like Singapore winning the World Cup.
With friends it is even harder. I just don't feel like bothering them.
And so someone came along. With her I can talk freely about any stuff. I don't mind telling her some of my personal stuff that I will never tell anyone else. But most importantly I am able to clear my barrier and express love to her. But she thinks sees that part of me and think that that is my normal self.
I guess it's because we don't have common friends so you wouldn't be able to be convinced by just my words, but also the words of others. I'm not the type who will tell the whole world about my feelings for somebody. I prefer to share it only with that person instead. That is the magic isn't it? Then it will be more special and sincere.
Damn, why did I go and look at her profile.